It is completely amazing how my feelings toward my play, parallel maternal feelings. The Birthday Dinner is my baby. I worry about it constantly like a parent does a child, though the worry is not one of stress. I've carried it around with me as if it were a part of me. It's all I talk about, think about, and no matter what I'm doing, I'm also doing something with The Birthday Dinner. Even if I'm just thinking about it in the back of my mind.
Anyways....the rehearsal process has begun. It's all been such an interesting journey and this rehearsal process is no different. In just the first week, I feel like we accomplished a lot, though I feel like we haven't even reached the halfway mark of our journey. We have a lot of work to do. The actual rehearsal space provides us challeneges in blocking the play. It's also rather hot at times in that storage facility, but hey....at least we have a place to rehearse cause at one time we didn't.
I feel that my cast has so much potential and I don't want to let them down as their director. I want to help lead them to the promise land. The rehearsals have been really intimate. I think overall it is, and will prove to be a good thing because The Birthday Dinner has so, so many moments and if those moments are not made, the play can become lost. Moments come in so many different ways too, and I've been trying my best to make sure I make all of them happen.
Outside of getting the cast together to act out the play, I feel like I am a one man army trying to get this play off the ground. In a sense...I am? Costumes, props, marketing, organizing, etc...right now I'm doing it all. I almost feel like I have to, but that's just how I am. I've always been like that. There's going to come a point when I have to rely on others, I'm just hoping that there will be others and they can be relied on.